I am going home......

I'm staring out into the night,

Trying to hide the pain.

I'm going to the place where love

And feeling good don't ever cost a thing

And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,

Back to the place where I belong,

And where your love has always been enough for me.

I'm not running from.

No, I think you got me all wrong.

I don't regret this life I chose for me.

But these places and these faces are getting old,

So I'm going home.

Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer,

it seems,

The closer I get to you.

I've not always been the best man or friend for you.

But your love, remains true.And I don't know why.

You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,

Back to the place where I belong,

And where your love has always been enough for me.

I'm not running from.

No, I think you got me all wrong.

I don't regret this life I chose for me.

But these places and these faces are getting old

Be careful what you wish for,

'Cause you just might get it all.

You just might get it all,And then some you don't want.

Be careful what you wish for,'

Cause you just might get it all.

You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,

Back to the place where I belong,

And where your love has always been enough for me.

I'm not running from.

No, I think you got me all wrong.

I don't regret this life I chose for me.

But these places and these faces are getting old.

I said these places and these faces are getting old,

So I'm going home.

I'm going home.

Be careful for the things done....

Many a times when we communicate with one another through chatting, messaging or even face to face, did we ever asked ourself what we have said or done affect others.... Hmmm... Sometimes when we communicate we tend to forget whether we affect other people through the actions we did.. Pretty sad when some of these actions affect others... But we never know.. Why?? Hmmm.. I don't know why also but i experience some before... Just don't understand whether they feel like ignoring me or not... Or just plain heartless or ruthless... No idea at all.. low level of social skilss?? hat i dare not say....When a person don't wish to communicate with you they might used tonnes of indirect reason to run away......some says so... maybe.. I don't know.. dare not say.. =D What to do this is the world that we are in... No pain no gain... Right??? But i dare say the the other party can feel it....how would you feel it that is done back to you?? I know how painful it is.. =(

Broken CD??

This is a broken compact disc!!

Last Saturday(6/10/07), my school had this so call parents teachers day. Hiak!! Of course this is the time when parents come to the school and listen to their precious little child`s achievement. As i went pass some class some parents have this red face, some have a smile in their face some just noncahlent walking out of the classroom. Well for me, I know i am not going to have such a good time after all. Since my achievement this time is terrible, i guess i would have to listen to the teachers nag about me!! Well, I was right!! The teachers really talk a lot about me. ------>(DUH!!!! if not who!!!)

Throughout the conversation, the teachers mention about me where i tend to think too much and overlook certain things which cause me to lose marks!! So while they were "enjoying" talking about me, my english teachers describe my weakness(tendency to skip certain issue) as a broken Compact Disc!! I was like what?? Clarence Bong= Broken Compact dics?? True or not teacher??

Haha.. But i gotto accept the fact though.. I do have this tendency to skip certain things.. =D Hmmm about 30+++ more days to go!! All the best to the candidates sitting for SPM and STPM!!

hidden sorrows, lasting joys.....

I wonder how many of you agree with this. Leave your comemnts k.. thanks..!!

Facing the giants........

Indeed it was a week full of trials and temptation. Even i myself, personally didn't know how i endure this week. It seems that every holiday, i will be facing with assortment of troubles and things which i wish it never happen.. For the past few days it was a challenge in me as i am fighting over things which is call depression and of course other negative factors..

No one in this world have a prefect life and each and everyone of us have our own struggles which i call in the giants..

Our struggles are like a group of 32 players in a team fighting against a team which have 85 players in this American football.. Such a big amount how on earth do this 32 player be able to defend themselves.. not to say in winning..

I am gonna share with you something i find it vital in all of us.. I watched this movie "facing the giants". A story that tells a coach struggles in helping his team regain his team's spirit. Not only that he has his own problems to encounter.. I was overwhelm by this movie as i see how this coach trust God in everything he do..

He broke down in the middle but because of God's servant who spoke to him through the book of Revelation, he found something which he never realize.. Not even i thought about it but now i do. Mr Bridges told this coach.. " both you and I believe that God is with us. Let me tell you this, there were two farmers, both praying for rain. But one of the farmer gather his stuffs and clear the land after praying whereas the other continues praying. So let me ask you.. Which farmer has the faith in God?"

Very simple the farmer who clears his land and prepare for the rain. Many a times we just pray and pray but we as ourselves never make an effort to do what we must. We just pray and hope God will do something in our life. God doesn't. He wants you to do your part and he will do the rest. God wants us to clear the land and waits for his rain to come. Not only must we seek God in prayer, we must do our part in enhancing out lives. Only by then you will see God's miracle and blessings.

These few days i am just filled with struggles.. I just pray and pray why God give me such a holiday? I prayed but i never do anything to work myself.. I am just like the farmer who pray and waits for the rain. Now i realize that i should have my deepest faith in God. No matter how giant are the problem is, I believe God's is with me. Thus, when i do my part i will always let his will be done on earth as it is in heaven. So long as i do the best i can God will do the rest.

Now i know why God gave me such a holiday. He will never waste a single hurt that I have endure. He lifted me up and made me understand his purpose in my life. I live not because of myself, my glory or even my integrity but because i live for God.

There are more giants ahead of me but i entrust to God that i will be able to fight through this giants. Although I am small but i believe when God is with me nothing is impossible.

Lord i am amazed with your working in me. How wide, How deep, How great is your love for me. Lord I am amazed by you.

Last but not least, I must say when we do something let us do it with our earnest heart. Just as a simple example, How can a servant serve 2 masters? Never right.. So when we do something even when we social or even do out work, do it well.. And when we find out that we have two things to do at once.. never try to do it altogether..
That's why God call us to serve one master and serve him well. Cause only by then will we do it with our whole heart and enlighten our master..

Until then..

Never again....

Lalalala... The blogger which to add some more post about certain issuse.. hmmmm... Now the blogger has decided not to take any serious concern towards what other things and feel.. The happenings around the blogger just made his decisions seems right.. taking certain issue upon his concern made people think he is insane, kepo and many more.. So for now onward.. the blogger just wish to take least concern or even little concern towards people feeling.. This is the aftermath towards issue happening around him.. Sounds unfair to others but what to do.. Let it happen then.. the blogger hope that his actions will help him prevent unecessary social problems with certain people.....

The walk...........

The blog, the walk has been desolated for sometime. Now it is back!! However, the post today will see a different angle towards this blogger known as "The Walk".

The blogger of this blog is somehow a weird person, strange attitude and many more . But there is just something that the blogger couldn't get it. What is the true meaning of life? Help others?? Hmm... Somehow at times when he help others, some ppl claims that he is freaking them out.. So that might not be the true meaning of life?.... Having friends whom you can lean on in our everyday life? Hmmm... Again it is hard to let this blogger do so..some even said that the blogger himself is weak, unable to handle the challenges in life and should not be call a man himself.....hmmm... that's why he has this electronic device known as the blog.. So again what is the true meaning of life? Good grades in studies?? Simply not.. acheiving well does not assure a safe and secure thus successful life... Again what is the true meaning of life? be friendly towrds others??--> flash back.. the blogger himself finds it seemingly impossible to do so.. too many people things that he is an eye sore.... Again question what is the ture meaning of life? Being one of the best in every aspect? Or seek God through at all times?

The blogger himself just only seek 2 things in life as he knows that with this 2 things he can move on well in this life by which God grant him... Just only 2 things and it will indeed spur this very blogger "the Walk" to curb the cynical mind of others and brushing every problems from his sight..

Cynical mind!!

Hmmm.... Why is such word playing around my mind? What is the thing that made me resort to such thinking??? I simply have no idea.. Maybe i am too sensitive or what so it is but it seriously is not making me in a comfortable position. I just simply feel unnice. Sometimes i just seems to have this feeling that people just use you for the sake of something then foeget about you once things are over.... is this what we call friends? Some say small matters just doesn't matter much... However, small matters sometimes can grow till it just seem impossible to happen.. Question still remains why does some people act like that? Is this their style? Or is they don't have the aptitude? No idea.. Maybe i am acting perjudice or it may be true... * cross hands* i hope this isn't true.. I hope i am too sensitive and i don't get into much thinking about such things...

Weeks past and my first and i mean FIRST mock exam is coming soon. 15 days.. counting down.. not to say SPM. The first mock simply put me in hot position. Knowing that i am the avrage type i got to put in extra effort to attain a good(excellent result)Sounds possible?? hardly!! i just see my hopes to reach my dreams drifting away.. Vision of it simply gets blur and blur each day...

I always tell myself that i can do it.. give my best shot and i believe God will do the rest. On the other hand, the pressure seems to be heavier and heavier.. I always throw my tantrum anyhow and anywhere i want... Simply bad,, I know.. Hence, i am trying to control it.. Thank God i still manage to do so.. However, how long can i control it le?? Time is running out and things are rushing in like running water!! Especially biology!! it is killing me like i have no hope in getting an A1!! ah!!!! No idea...

I am just having headaches.. I just simply don't get it!! When i am sick or something.. calls and things just starts to come in.. sigh*** No idea.. maybe it is my fate... i guess... simply don't understand..

while i was typing, this song just played and the lyrics is just infront of me.. it goes..

I say I love you, i say i need you

I try so many ways to say how my heart beats for you

I say I'm always thinking about you

There's no way i'd want to face this life without you

And even though these words come from deep inside me

There's so much more I don't have the words to say

Cause what i really want to say

Is what the sun would say would say to the sky

For giving me it a place to come alive

Bu my words get in the way

Of what i really want to say

Oh! what i really say

I know that sometimes my words can be as hard as a stone

And sometimes my words have left you feeling so alone

So please forgive me and hear the words I'm saying now

I will spend my whole life looking for a way somehow

To le you know just how precious you are to me

I'll use the best words but i still won't say it all

It's like a tale too great to be told

It's something that my heart can only show

I'm gonna ake my whole life

Just to let you know

What i really want to say

Oh, what i really want to say

What i really want to say

Oh, what i really want to say..

Well, it may be confusing as my post are just filled with partial positive thinking partial negative.. Sorry for those who are reading.. It's just this thoughts that made my head blow...

Here's the future!!!!

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Customer : Haloo!! can i order....

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Customer : Is's ah...hold on.. 6748569998-75-672890

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Customer: HOMe!! how did you get all my house number?

Operator : We are connected to the system sir..

Customer : May i order your seafood pizza....

Operator : That;s not a good idea sir

Customer : How come?

Operator : According to your medical records, you have high cholesterol level sir.

Customer : What?... What do u recommand then?

Operator : Try our Low Fat Hokkien Low Fun Pizaa,You'll like it.

Customer : HOw do you know for sure?

Operator : You borrowed a book entitled " Popular Hokkien Dishes" from the National Library last week sir.

Curtomer : Ok i give up...give me the three family-size ones then, how much will it cost?

Operator : That should be enough for your family of eight sir. The total is RM75.99

Customer : Can i pay by credit card?

Operator : I'am afraid you have to pay us by cash, sir. Your credit card is over the limit and you're owing your bank RM2755.60 since Last November. That's not including the late payment charges on your housing loan, sir.

Customer : I guess i have to run to the neighbourhood ATM and withdraw some cash before your guy arrives.

Operator : You can't sir! Based on the records, you've reached your daily limit on machine withdrwal today.

Customer : Nevermind! Just send the pizzas. I'll have the cash ready. How long is it going to take anyway?

Operator : About 45 minutes, sir but if you can't wait you can always come and collect it on your motorcycle....

Customer : what????

Operator : According to the details in the system, you own a scooter registration number EX6767....

Customer : **&*&^&^%$$@#!#$%.....

Operator : Better watch your language sir. Remember on the 10th June 1988 you were convicted of using abusive language on a policeman...

Customer : (speechless)

Operator : Is there anything else, Sir

Customer : Nothing...by the way...aren't you giving me the three free bottles of cola as adveritsed?

Operator : We normally would, sir, But BASED ON OUr RECORDS YOU'RE ALSO DIABETIC...........

Happy Birthday Granny!!! =D

Yo!! Exam is over but the truth is yet to come!! My results!! haha... not so convincing la my results... Mati lo.. how am i gonna tell my parents yikes.... =D

OK to the point... Today was my Granny;s birthday!!! So happy for her as i finally can see her smile so happily... But before that i must give thanks to God.. Cause it is by his Guidance, mercy and his healing grace my Granny is now healthy and is now celebrating her Birthday!! 3-4 years ago she was suffering from some sickness till she was so weak, Loosing her cautiousness easily and a few times she need to go under ICU for about 2 months. So seeing her tonight with her smile made me say Thanks You Lord!! =D Happy Birthday Granny!!

Oh yah the birthday party won't be that fun without the 2 mischievous cousin of mine, Issac and Caleb. Those 2 cubby and adorable kids simply enhance the joy among my Family members.. Issac the chubby, happy go lucky, adorable and super sociable guy was so anxious about the cake. As the cake arrived, he sang Happy Birthday so loudly i just couldn't control myself from laughing.. His voice just punches through the air, covering the crowds noise... His brother Caleb joined in... Making it more hilarious.....

Issac and Caleb you make it all so lively, but i must say they bring me back to my childhood.. remembering how I was last time.. Notorious and naive... Demolishing whatever i can see, giving my parents a tough time.. haha..

Before i end, there is the song that suddenly sings in my mind... " remembering you" by Steven Curtis Chapman.. The bridge written
"The dark night, hard fight, the long climb up the hill knowing the cost, the great death, the last breath, the silence whispering all that was lost and the power that bring the death to life" Amazing thing that reminds me of life..

Through the darkest time of life, the risk that we dare to take, the big trouble we are into and the final moment where we got to face the music.. But let not those toughest part be a sorrow part in life.. Let it be an experience ,as gaining all those experience just make us stronger.. with the he help of our friends, family and God it is just like bringing us from death to life.. From the toughest prat of life we are able to see the light that we long to!!

To have something joyful the chorus sings like this... And i watch as the sun fills the sky that was dark and i think of the way you fill up my heart... I will be remembering you!! I will be remembering you... OH i will smell the flowers and hear the bird sing i Will be remembering you!!

Happy reading to you all and do drop some of your comments... And Happy Holiday!!

Pictures!!!

Yes!! Finally i got the picture but sadly not as much as expected!!! But it is better than nothing =D haha

Look at that cat!! So proud!!!

Interviewing cat is simply sigh** swt**

Prefect Camp!! Part 2

OK!! As prmoise i am gonna write more about the camp.. Still i have not got any picture..Sigh** No camera really make life difficult for me..sigh** Haha.. Anyway i will try my best to tell the story.. =D

So second day was really exhausting!! We started the day by running almost 2 kilometers with the fascilitator...it was really tiring but pretty refreshing. After that we had this game call " Lau Ying Jua Shiao Ji" direct translation to english it means eagle catch small chicken.. So unfortunately we lost cause 2 groups berpakat and got us down... sigh**

Breakfast was weird... The beehoon is so dry and sticky...=( swt man**

After that we were called to built a towel with straws!! Quite possible but i cannot assure good stability... So our team manage to come out with a "rush hour structure" where the piramid sides were all bent with the middle filled with a bunch of strws... But uniquely this strusture won't topple that easily.. the moment you push it hardly it just won't fall.. AMAZING!!! However, sadly our structure didn't survive the wind test... Somehow Mr. Joseph was able to find the weak point.. sigh**

We had a football match.. I was in i think lah Kaki Bangku Fc against Mr Joseph's team.. I must admit Mr Rahim and Joseph can really play... Boy are they good.. the final score was 3-3

In the afternoon we had this physical traning..

Spider-web
we must go through the holes which are really small.. Imagine me!!! Quite big in size!!! Do u think i can go through that small HOLE!!! OF course can!! But with the help of my team members.. Without them i don't think i manage to get through that hole.. ok next game!!

Electric Fence..
Each team member must be over the other side without touching the string in order to complete the task!! It was hard as one of the rule say that we must not drop the wood too!! So imagine carrying almost 300++kg over.. Sweat... But le we fail the task!! it was impossible to complete that task!!!


ok.. Next!!! Ok i must say sorrry cause i don't know how to explain the next game...
Pretty Complicated la cause u know me.. not that good in explaining!! =D

Then off we go to the beach after all those streneous activity... Thanks to Wan Thin and the gang i got myself wet and terkena the salt water... swt** But the interesting is that we made a mannequin out of lionel.. the sand type and we add somemore stuffs to his body... which is really really yellow pages...

So here goes Part 2...

***Oh yah April 24th.. i did something which is very stupid.. totally regret it...*****

April 25 = A good laugh with a loved one or co-worker is ofthen just the thing to help overcome friction and communication problems.

Prefect Camp!!!!

Prefect camp was great. Needless to say it was fun and wild for all those who went. Although i had this ulcer that had been bothering during the camp i still manage to enjoy meself to the fullness...

The journey to Kem Belia Pueh Sematan was grueling!!! Imagine almost 45 people in a NON air-condition bus... Can you all imagine how bad it is???? Sweat*** PLus with the ulcer in my tongue boy was it toturing... However i managed to sing along with Lionel and some other people. Sadly majority of the people were sleeping or listening to some music.. So we didn't sing for long.. =( Our singing were pretty good....

At Kem Pueh... There was this *si ai bin* and fierce fascilitator who thinks that he is so great and the King of the Kem Pueh!! Setting up so many rules which we all knew since we were a child( i think) haha... But that was still ok... Not until when he take us rebels... Come one!! Do we as prefect look like rebels * blink blink* haha... ANyway that wasn't important... Part of life with some unsatisfactory...

Oh yah!! We played this game called guardian angel!! Guess who i am guarding>>> Non other then one of my longest friend... Mr Lionel Poh!!! AS a guardian angel i just tried my best to make him happy.... but sadly the respond he gave were so cold... This is what he say whenever i pass him a drink: go to hell or aiyo lu jin ma huan eh!!!!( can't blame him.. he don't know who is guardian angel is..) ho lionel.....

Well i think that is all for me to say... Still thnking of how to write all those experince plus i am still waiting for the pictures... hehe

Oh yah one more thing interviewing cats is not easy....

Walau!!!

Booya!! What a week.. Finishing my third last paper on Thursday really made me as light as a balloon!! Finally History papers is of my head and no more freaky long names to remember =D haha But strange thing is that i kinda feel like playing badminton that day... Which of course made me cari my kaki for badminton.. However, i was pushing myself to the limits... Playing rounds and rounds making myself gasping for air and my body just say.." hey man you idiot stop it!! You will hurt yourself!!" Ignoring my brain's message i continued playing on.. I just jump and push myself.. Till i forgot in the first place i have sprank my ankle before the game start... But good thing i didn't collapse or get myself hurt!! Muahaha However that game really release my tension and other things running about my mind......

OK what's next...hmmm... Good Friday nothing much happen actually

Today(07/05/07) nothing much happen also... these days are just simply Booring!! lost of words liao... But the weather yesterday was incelment!!

WHEN LOVE TAKES YOU IN.

It has been all they day!! Looking the dark clouds with those thunderous lightning.. it juts make me moody ... Out of the blues came this very song..The love which i love most last time.. It just came to my mind.. Pretty strange.. I don't know why but it just drain into my mind.. So sweet and so touching!! Let me share this with you all:

When Love takes you in

I know you've heard the story

But they all sound so good to be true

You've heard about a place call home

But there doesn't seem to be one for you

So one night you cry yourself to sleep

And drft off to a distant dream

Where Love takes you in and everything changes

A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

When love takes you home and says you belong here

The loneliness ends and a new life begins

When love takes you in

And somewhere while you're sleeping

Someone else is dreaming too

Counting down the days until

They hold you close and say I love you

And like the rain that falls into the sea

In a moment what has been is lost in what will be

When love takes you in everything changes

A miracle starts with the beat of the heart

And this love will never let you go

There is nothing that could ever cause this love to lose its hold

When love takes you in everything changes

A miracle start with the beat of a heart

When love takes you home and says you belong here

The loneliness ends and a new life begins

When love takes you in it take you in for good

When love takes you in

What a day!!

Finally!! Our anual school sports day has finally end!! Yahoo!! But sadly Noel didn't retain its title as the champion... Hose Won it!! How can!! haha But i gotta admit they are pretty good.. Most of them are athletics ba!!! So not far..All MSSM runners!! How can!! but what to do maybe this is their blessing!! haha.. But i must not deny that the girls athlelics were pretty good.. Some of them are faster than the boys... sweat** haha...

Oh yah!! A lesson learnt too!! Never fun bare foot on the track especially under that burning heat!! Mr. Lionel somehow ended up with no sport shoes( as pronounced by Ting it is spot shue) so he ended up running bear footed!! And guess what!! he has his feet burnt, leaving some blister!! You should look at the wounds.. Yuck!!! Nevermind Lionel it is like what you said " a blessing in disguise!! Since next week is exam and you can stay in class t o study rather than pratorlling around!! Muahahahahaha!! " Tam Kai!!"

Anyway i am out of ideas already!!! sigh****