Hmmm.... Why is such word playing around my mind? What is the thing that made me resort to such thinking??? I simply have no idea.. Maybe i am too sensitive or what so it is but it seriously is not making me in a comfortable position. I just simply feel unnice. Sometimes i just seems to have this feeling that people just use you for the sake of something then foeget about you once things are over.... is this what we call friends? Some say small matters just doesn't matter much... However, small matters sometimes can grow till it just seem impossible to happen.. Question still remains why does some people act like that? Is this their style? Or is they don't have the aptitude? No idea.. Maybe i am acting perjudice or it may be true... * cross hands* i hope this isn't true.. I hope i am too sensitive and i don't get into much thinking about such things...
Weeks past and my first and i mean FIRST mock exam is coming soon. 15 days.. counting down.. not to say SPM. The first mock simply put me in hot position. Knowing that i am the avrage type i got to put in extra effort to attain a good(excellent result)Sounds possible?? hardly!! i just see my hopes to reach my dreams drifting away.. Vision of it simply gets blur and blur each day...
I always tell myself that i can do it.. give my best shot and i believe God will do the rest. On the other hand, the pressure seems to be heavier and heavier.. I always throw my tantrum anyhow and anywhere i want... Simply bad,, I know.. Hence, i am trying to control it.. Thank God i still manage to do so.. However, how long can i control it le?? Time is running out and things are rushing in like running water!! Especially biology!! it is killing me like i have no hope in getting an A1!! ah!!!! No idea...
I am just having headaches.. I just simply don't get it!! When i am sick or something.. calls and things just starts to come in.. sigh*** No idea.. maybe it is my fate... i guess... simply don't understand..
while i was typing, this song just played and the lyrics is just infront of me.. it goes..
I say I love you, i say i need you
I try so many ways to say how my heart beats for you
I say I'm always thinking about you
There's no way i'd want to face this life without you
And even though these words come from deep inside me
There's so much more I don't have the words to say
Cause what i really want to say
Is what the sun would say would say to the sky
For giving me it a place to come alive
Bu my words get in the way
Of what i really want to say
Oh! what i really say
I know that sometimes my words can be as hard as a stone
And sometimes my words have left you feeling so alone
So please forgive me and hear the words I'm saying now
I will spend my whole life looking for a way somehow
To le you know just how precious you are to me
I'll use the best words but i still won't say it all
It's like a tale too great to be told
It's something that my heart can only show
I'm gonna ake my whole life
Just to let you know
What i really want to say
Oh, what i really want to say
What i really want to say
Oh, what i really want to say..
Well, it may be confusing as my post are just filled with partial positive thinking partial negative.. Sorry for those who are reading.. It's just this thoughts that made my head blow...
