The road to choose...

Am i on the right track? To which route shall i choose?

What up...

It's been looong since i last update this blog. =D Just got a bit caught up with parents and also waiting for UNI results. It is scary that not all of my results come out at one go. I have been waiting and waiting and it is sucking my blood dry. Knowing that i didn't do that goood in mech. statics, it just worries me. :S I just hate that wait. I'll let him guide and give what i deserve. I just hope for a good pass or even better a credit. This is my target and i submit it to God.

Life is taking a turn. I didn't like facing certain things in my life. Especially when it even close friends connected with family issue. Things just go chaotic. I couldn't handle it as both holds a dearly position in my life. I am just like an egg in the middle of a sharp horn. Both wants it their way but i just couldn't compliment them. What should i do??

One more thing which kinda bothers me as well is the existence if this person in my eyes. THAT person is such a pain in the ass. you know who you are!

Out.

left out

That is it..two words..left out.

NIGHT IN the university

I can never imagine how I manage to survive the night without my beauty sleep. Even as leon and Ray-mon says that it wasn't a big issue but for me it was horrible. My back was aching and i didn't really enjoy the morning. However, a lot of things happen during the night when we were in uni doing our EAL( English) essay worth 20% of our total grade. 

No. 1 I AM SO SO ANTI-COFFEE now. I just drank one cup of coffee and i went to the toilet so often that i forgot how many times.  Everyone gave me the stare as i kept going to the toilet. Why? Rather than walking to the toilet i ran like a mad cow! Thanks to coffee.. haih...

 

No. 2 Ray shared about his experience in high school. nothing much

No. 3 Ray said shai may is hot like a model. Well, hope she doesn't read this blog.

No. 4 Ray comment on what type of wife she wants. He emphasize on how important the body shape it. you should see how he put it.

No 5. This i have to say thank you to EMANDY. hahaIt was 5am and I was playing with my facebook and i saw Emandy's post. So i responded to her post. Minutes after that, i got notification from my phone that Emandy responded to her post. So i click and i saw EMANDY's respond. She wrote, THANK YOU DEARIE and all the best in ur test tomorrow and thursday. I went... hmm what is she thanking me and why is she calling me dearie?? I went hmmm... and i went thinking since when did i have a test tomorrow? but then i have something to show my teacher on thursday which is my EAL essay. A lot of ques came into my mind and i was thinking there is something wrong with Emandy. I was a bit perasan that time cause of the dearie. Haha.. After pondering for sometime i scroll up and find out that she wasn't replying to my post but to some other people. I went cheh.... 

So i moral of the story is please do not stay overnight in uni to finish up your assignment. Insane thinking can happen! haha..

Before i end there is a picture that i would like to post to give recognition to this artist....LIM YA WEN

I think she is too stressed out with her exam. Haha.. 

p/s: That thing you drew looks like you now! hahahahahahaha   

Tired of complaining

The past week has been a horrible week,just as if I was thrown to Mount Everest. It was tough and i complained a lot. Questions fills my mind, questioning why did this ever happen to me. I couldn't understand as well. I did sufficient practise and the test is manageable and i manage to answer all the question without much doubt. I complain a lot for the past few weeks till a point, i felt tired. I didn't want to say even a word about it anymore. 

Thing started to take a turn when i was in the cell club meeting doing some discussion in my devotion with my group member. We used Joshua 23 as our devotion material. So, during the discussion one of the verse caught my attention. Joshua 23:14 reads " Now I am about to go the way of all the earth. You know with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the Lord God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has FAILED." The Lord God has not fail in our life. It is us who has fail. 

Then there was in my mind, did i made a mistake in my paper. I was pretty sure all the calculation was right and when the solutions are up on myuni, i checked and there is no way i make a mistake! Not until today, 11/05/2009 have I got the chance to view my test script. I went through the answer and guess what did i find out?=====>

1. There is one question which i got the right answer but i lock in the wrong answer. Ok that is one mark gone.

2. There is 2 question where I made a mistake in my rheumatic. A plus on one side, when shift to another side should be a negative. But dear old me didn't. So boom 2 marks gone and that's how bad it is.

Lessons:

1) Keep my head and heart cool while doing the exam. Ray said i lose mark because of my anxiety.. I kinda agree on that...

2) Check again!!

I think i got to keep my head cool and don't be too anxious.

Dejected

Monday was the worst day that i have for the past 3 months when i am here. When i saw the thing i was confident fail from my hand, this feeling is simply horrible. Indescribable and painful. Yes, even as a lot say that no pain no gain. I believe that but the pain is just termendous. Even though my mind keeping telling me to behave and think positively but then, the sense of failure and faiding of hope just crept into me. I am just lost. I am trying to overcome this feeling but it kept coming. From time to time when i tried studying, the thoughts just dwell in my mind. sigh* What should i do... I am just dejected. Overcoming this obstacle with difficulty...................................

Words

Words can be really hurting at times when it is misused. Even though one might say he/she didn't mean it and one said he/she is joking but sadly, that person has already had that sort of mentality. So sorry just won't help that well. Words can cause much misunderstanding as well. At times you might be wondering whether what is said by the person is earnestly true or is basically just a cover up. So... words...Why must it be words?